As part of Texas 4000, it can be disheartening to hear about peoples' recent losses in their battles with cancer. It's frustrating how much time, money and effort has already gone into cancer research and how we still don't have a cure.

I know it's cliche to say "I'm doing my part," but I'm happy that Texas 4000 helps me not feel helpless. I know I'm not personally going to cure cancer, but I'm glad that I'm donating to the cause, and that I'm giving my time to spread awareness and to let people know that I'm here for them.

I went into this organization solely for my mom-I was upset that I lost her to cancer, and I wanted to do something to help cope with my feelings. But as I fundraise and reach out to people and tell them why I ride, I've been learning so much about other people who are fighting cancer or who are mourning for those who have lost their fight. I want to do more than just learn to cope with my own sadness, but also learn from this experience and be able to help others.

I lost a family friend last week to cancer--Grandma Marilyn. She gave me my first teddy bear. (His name is Ted, as I was probably 3 when I named him and not very imaginative). Another friend of mine lost his mentor/professor on Wednesday to cancer as well. We're all dealing with similar feelings and frustrations. I'm glad I can ride for those who can't, and I'm glad T4K has perhaps taught me to be a little less selfish in my motives. I've started a list of people I ride for, and I'll continue adding to the list even after the ride. I hope, eventually, the list will grow slower and I'll live to see the day that it ends on its own.